tionship,toa
reronticbondbutpassionshehad,heuldnot
denyit,andhithertohehadtriedtoseeiteloyedinhisthoughtsuponthelivesofthechildreno
bebotothe
“sheakeaperfeotherofsons,”
hethought;butseeinghersittingthere,glooandsilent,hebegantohavehisdoubtsonthispoint“afarce,afarself“shesaidthatourrriage
esuddenlyaware
oftheirsituation,sittingupontheground,angthedeadleaves,notfiftyyardsfroheinroad,sothatiteonepassingtoseeandregnize
thehebrushedoffhisfaceanytracethatght
reinofthatunseeyexhibitionofetionbuthe
oretroubledbykatharinesappearance,asshesatraptinthoughtupontheground,thanbyhisohere211
nightandday
ethingiropertohinherselfforgetfulness
annaturallyalivetothenventionsofsociety,heenonceed,
andespeciallyiftheenhappenedtobeinanywaynnectedhenoticedhdistressthelong
strandofdarkhairtouchinghershoulderandthreedeadbeechleavesattachedtoherdress;buttorecallhedintheirpresentcircutancestoasenseof
thesedetailspossibleshesatthere,seengunnsciousofeverythinghesuspectedthatinhersilenceshehehatshewould
thinkofherhairandofthedeadbeechleaves,horeiediateiortanthananything
elseindeed,thesetriflesdretention
strangelyfroisoind;
forrelief,xingitselfostcurious
hurryandtultinhisbreast,alstncealinghisfirstsharpsenseofbleakandoveringdisappointntinordertorelievethisrestlessnessandcloseadistressinglyillorderedscene,heroseabruptlyandhelpedkatharioherfeetshesledalittleatthenute
carehidiedherandyet,whenhebrushed
thedeadleavesfroiso,sheflinched,seeing
inthataan
“,”shesaid,“iarryyouiake
youhappy”
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theafteoonhetwo
other,caouton
thehighroadbeyondtheoutskirtsoflinlnthehighroad,astheybothfelt,tersuitedtothisretujoueythantheopenuntry,andforthefirstleorsooftheindralph
hepassageoftheothe
heath;hetheninutesthat
hehadspentinedeachword
hthecarethatascholardisplaysupontheirregularitiesofanancienttextheinedthattheglow,
theroneetingshouldnot
paintustinfutureregardassoberfactson
hersidery,notbecauseherthoughtstook
chhandling,butbecausehedseedetyof
thoughtasherheartoffeelingonlyralphspresence,assheknebness,forsheuldforesee
atioflonelinessanyvarietiesofpainwould
besetheratthepresentnthereffortopre
servesheuldofthe,for
supseofherloveso
involuntarilyrevealedtoralphinthelightofreasonitdidnotchtter,perhaps,butitinctto
becarefulofthatvisionofherselfhkeepspacesoevenlybesideeveryoneofus,andhadbeendagedbyhefessionthegraynightingdohe
untryoher;andshethoughtthatoneof
thesedaysshefortinsittinguponthe
earth,alone,beneathatreelookingthroughthedarkness,sherkedtheshetreeralph
deherstartbysayingabruptly;
“iosayerruptedat
lunchericaishalle,tooit
cantbehardertoeaalivingtherethanitisherehoary,thati
arryyouwell,doyousay”hespoke
firy,inhis
“youknoebythisti,thegoodandthebad,”he
yteersivetriedtoletyou
knoyfaultswell,ary”
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nightandday
shesaidnothing,butthisdidnotseeostrikehi“instportantways,asyou
said,herandhinkalikeibelieve
youaretheonlypersonintheh
happilyandifyoufeelthesaaboutasyoudo,
dontyou,ryakeeachotherhappy”
herehepaused,andseedtobeinnohurryforan
ansed,indeed,tobentinuinghisown
thoughts
“yes,butifraidiuldntdoit,”rysaidatlast
thecasualandratherhurriedhshespoke,
togetherhthefactthatsheheexactopposite
ofso
chthatheinstinctivelyloosenedhisclaspuponheradshehdrequietly
“youuldntdoit”heasked
“no,iuldntrryyou,”shereplied
“youdonte”
shedenoanswer
“ary,”hesaid,ustbe
anarrantfool,forithoughtyoudid”theywalkedforanuteortuedtoher,
lookedather,andexary
yourenottellingthetruth”
“iootiredtoargue,ralph,”shereplied,tuingherheadahi“iaskyoutobelieveisayi
cantrryyou;idontarryyou”
thevoiceinatedthislythe
voieextretyofanguishthatralphhad
noursebuttoobeyherandassoonasthetoneofhervoihisnd,
hefoundhielfbelievingthatshehadspokenthetruth,forhehadbutlittlevanity,andsoonherrefusalseedanaturalthingtohiheslippedthroughallthegradesofdespondenofabsolute
gloofailureseedtorkthewholeofhislife;hehadfailedhkatharine,andnoh
ryupatoncesprangthethoughtofkatharine,and,butthishechecked
instantlynogoodhadeveretohiroatharine;
hisadeupof
dreandashethoughtofthelittlesubstancethere214
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